Just because I'm Catholic doesn't mean I'm going to judge others. It doesn't mean I judge myself or guilt trip myself. Someone else's experience with religion does not define how I love or worship God. I don't choose to show less of myself on display because someone else is "filthy" or because I judge them. I want to be seen and loved. I WANT to act in accordance with how my soul deserves to be treated. I want to act in such a way that doesn't harm others or myself. But I'm not sitting here guilting myself if I fall. I'll be completely frank here….I gave myself a huge mind-blowing orgasm yesterday that made me have tears in my eyes, but you know what? I'm not filled with unhappiness or guilt, nor do I want to keep doing it all day again and again. I do not feel that God is disappointed in me. I move on. I refocus and thank God that he loves me. I'm not all twisted up inside. I may lose friends because they think I'm living a life that I can never be happy with, but you know what? Your perception of me is not me. I want to cultivate friendships where we aspire one another to our absolute heights. There's more to life than indulging in things because "life is short".
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