Desire Mercy

 

When Your Faith Is Put to the Test - Bishop Barron's Sunday Sermon

"Do you love the benefits of God, or do you love God?"

This actually reminds me of one of the messages I heard this year, which I believe was Jesus speaking to me. 

He said to me, "We planted roses in the Garden of Gethsemane". At the time I didn't know fully what it meant, but I knew it had a lot of meanings. I wrote a poem and another blog post about it. Now, hearing this statement, which is a central question in the spiritual life, I think of the image of planting seeds and doing labor, not knowing if or when anything will grow, but trusting and loving God, even when the benefits aren't visible.

It is for Him.

Only Jesus is worthy of the ridiculous kind of Love I have to give from the deepest depths of my heart… and only he is worth the yearning I feel in my spirit. I spent so much time lamenting the love from my heart being wasted, but it is not wasted! How silly I’d been. With so much love to give, I see now that it is you Lord who openly receives it. You see me. You know me. And you TRULY love me. My desire to take your pain is understood by you. As is my deepest want—to dwell in you as you dwell in me. All of my overwhelming desire bleeds into your cup and you drink. I know you desire me fully, as you have already poured out your desire for me, in giving all of yourself, for me to consume. I don’t have to be afraid.

God doesn’t give warnings because he doesn’t know what we’re going to do—He already knows always and forever all that ever was, is, and will be. He knows how everything will play out. He knows everything we have ever thought or will think... From the Beginning. But He often will show us that we need Him, and gives us the opportunity to need Him by letting us fall. He proves to us repeatedly that without Him, we are but dust. When we disobey him or his warnings, it’s for us to see. For us to look back and reflect on how we should have listened and what a mess we make of things on our own.

More Merton…

 

Denial of God and His holiness (Merton)

Moving through changes

 

The new person I’m becoming (and a new future) can’t come forward if I stubbornly won’t let her or if I hold on to old preconceived ideas of who I am or what my life is. I can’t stay still and expect changes to happen. I have to move. And I have to move THROUGH these changes. I can get in my own way!

Despite all my whining and protesting, you still speak in ways I understand and I know you love me. You are always close, Lord. ❤️

(Does “step aside” also mean to deny my Self?) 🤔 

#godsvoice #messagesfromgod #holyspirit #holyspiritmybestfriend

God is legit funny.