Love, Miracles and the Sacred Heart of Jesus

Late at night, especially when lying down in bed, I have lately been hearing the words "I love you... I love you...I love you..." whispered to my heart. With as much strength and clarity as the name Nehara was spoken to me many years ago. It would almost freak me out if it didn't give me such a sense of peace, love and centeredness. The voice speaking the words hits deep, sinking into my bones and caressing my soul. I am calm. I am loved. I AM love.

I will be entering into a 21-day fast starting on June 1st. June is the month of the sacred heart of Jesus. I didn't actually plan this fast for June ahead of time with that in mind, it just happened perfectly that way, as God intends. I am expecting miracles and a season of joy and abundance on the horizon. I am approaching God with a truly clean heart. I am free from sexual immorality and anything unclean within me is being held up to the fire for burning and purification. 

This is a time of metamorphosis. A time where belief gives way to experiencing true miracles. Keep your eyes open. God is speaking in signs in the environment. Focus on Love. Act in Love. Be Love in all that you do. Be one with God. And Love others as you love yourself. Be gentle. Let your thoughts be innocent and pure like God's. Pray for this in your heart and pray for this in the hearts of others. May we be one heart, as we enter the sacred heart of Jesus. In our devotion, may our names be carved in his heart and may he bless every heart that keeps his sacred heart within.

"I must give, so that I can live..."

I've lost quite a few "friends" and acquaintances since I've come back to my Catholic faith (which is expected), but some may have also passed judgment on me after noticing I'm not perfect or a beacon of holiness, which I still strive for but often fail at. 

No, I am not perfect. But no one is. One thing I am is honest, though. And when I fail or walk towards error, I am quick to try and correct my path.

Are we truly living as if God is inside us? Are we loving others as He loves us? Are we obeying His commandments? Do we extend God's light outward from within us? Do we invite sinners to our table and embrace them, forgive them, and share with them the truth of God's love? Or do we reject them? Are we living in a bubble of "delulu" sinlessness? Are we using our gifts to help HEAL others and bring others into relationship with God?

Each of our spiritual paths is a unique journey of struggles and strides and setbacks. And let me tell you... No matter how many times I fall, I will always get back up. (Thanks to Father Mike Schmitz for teaching me about "Nunc Coepi"!) With cheeks dirty from mascara-muddied tears, I will come back to Jesus as many times as it takes. Every day I get to choose Him again and again. 

Satan wants to tell me that it's hopeless and that I'll always be a wh*re and that I'll never change. That my life is empty and that I'm not good enough. That I'm broken beyond repair. I reject this with every fiber of my being. 

When it comes to being an image of holiness or sainthood, do not look to me for that. But can you look to me to assure you of God's love for you? Yes, indeed. Can you look to me to accept you and to love you? You sure can. I may not be good at loving myself all the time, but I’m better at it than I used to be. Jesus gives me my strength. I trust in His mercy, and I can openly receive God’s love. And I can GIVE love. I am good at that! I must give...

(Also, if you know what song my title's lyrics are from... 👍) ;-)