Be Here Now

I’ve always felt that I was being watched over and taken care of.  Things seem to happen in my life where someone or something intervenes so that everything always works out.  I took this for granted and had even cut myself off spiritually at times, but it is in those times that I was probably being watched over most closely.  Cradled, even.

I have a spirit guide that is very close to me.  A psychic has seen him, and I know he’s there because I have seen him, too.  I love him.  I miss him.  I feel that my old tired soul has been around for a long time, and he has always remained with me.  At times, I even considered the possibility that maybe in a past incarnation he may have been Jesus (or Christ consciousness), but I cannot validate that. All I know is that I feel that I am missing something… a piece of myself…and that I had this piece once before, but now it is gone.  Maybe not entirely *gone*, but just unable to find it here in the physical.  I feel that he was once part of me and that we shared a very strong, ethereal love together.  I can only reconnect to that feeling at times in dreams and deep in my soul.  I want to feel that again in this lifetime.  I remember feeling it.  I do remember.

In meditation, I’ve spoken to him.  I told him how I miss him and how hard this physical life is.  I told him about my fear of death.  But he assured me that just as we do not remember the moment we “came in” to consciousness--the moment going from not being conscious to being conscious--we shouldn’t imagine that we will experience consciousness ending.  We are eternal.  Nothing ever disappears completely, but changes to different states.  We are made from dust and will return to dust.  There is no time, only infinity.  I must learn to relish the fact that I AM young and alive. That my being is fresh with opportunity, to learn new things, to love other people and to BE HERE NOW.

We forget that we've been given a gift to experience this physical reality in a body… to feel, to touch, to taste, to make love.  To create and to PLAY.  To connect with others and be able to express love. To do all of these wonderful things as reflections of the universe. Sometimes we spend too much time in meditation or thinking on our past lives or journeying to other realms.  These things are wonderful tools that help us along our soul's path, but if we spend too much time not being present here now, it just becomes another sort of escapism similar to drugs or alcohol.  We have to be present in the very bowels of being... no matter how hard it is or how much it can hurt.  The universe doesn't perceive things in terms of "good" or "bad".  Everything just leads our soul to experience what we are supposed to experience, by whatever means possible.

Someday, when we are discarnate we could look upon this life and our experiences like a child emptying Halloween candy onto the floor.  All the experiences are different pieces of candy.  Some of the most painful experiences are sometimes the best pieces of candy.  Pain means you FELT something.  Pain means you Loved.  Sure, SweetTarts are ok and there are a lot of them scattered all around... but they're no fucking Reese's.

Ya dig?

Don’t ever be afraid of falling in love. That’s why we are all here, really.

Love unabashedly.
Love recklessly, even.
It’s the most important thing we can share as human beings.

Love and the Paranormal

What is love? Maybe love is God.

I've often paralleled the idea of proving the existence of God or the paranormal with the concept of the feeling of love.

Love is a socially acceptable ghost, in a way. How can you prove the existence of love? Unlike belief in God or ghosts, no one seems to doubt that the feeling of love exists. Yet, you can't really prove that it does. We believe in it.

Sure, one can examine the chemical reactions in the brain, and what happens biologically when one experiences the sensation of love. One can prove the psychological factors involved in why someone might "fall in love" with a particular kind of person.  But can you PROVE the feeling? Can you prove that it exists? How would we define the feeling?

What are the many ways to prove love? This doesn’t mean proving to someone else that you love them, but proving the feeling. Proving that the feelings exists.

What happens when you feel love? What do you do? What happens around you? Are there any ways of documenting it? Can you take a picture of it?

We are all very arrogant about tearing down each others’ ghosts--criticizing the beliefs of one another. Why are so many people skeptical when it comes to the spiritual and paranormal, yet are not skeptical of the existence of love? It is a subjective experience.  There is no evidence that it exists, but yet we don’t doubt the feeling of love. People don't seem to question the existence of radio waves and microwaves as they place their food in a "magical box" that cooks their food. Even though we cannot see them, we know they exist because they have a practical application.  There is scientific proof through an application that people can use.

Maybe our belief in love is due to a very orthodox form of mass hypnosis, known as "education". The concept has been ingrained in us and we accept it and believe in it.  IT‘S A SOCIALLY ACCEPTABLE GHOST.  Our parents all talked about it and we were told that “love” is what put us here. Our parents “loved” each other and made us. God “loves” us and made us in his image. Our society talks about it all the time and no one finds it unusual, but yet ESP and spirits are “weird” and not normal.

Maybe we do not REALLY know what love IS. We obviously haven’t mastered it yet. We humans are not always very loving beings, are we? Perhaps we should focus on learning how to truly LOVE... and then maybe everything else will fall into place. Let's start with ourselves. Then maybe we'll find God.

"Love is qualified as an attribute of that force, power or influence known as God. Thus as man makes application of love in his daily experience, he finds God a personal God." --Edgar Cayce

Aura Reading

Have you ever wondered what your aura looks like?  If you are not familiar with what an aura is, think of it as a luminous cocoon, or an energy field that emanates off of the surface of all people and objects.  Auras vibrate to different colors, sounds, and light frequencies. One's aura colors may vary due to physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual states. 

A few weeks ago, I had my aura read on a field trip with my massage therapy class.  Below is a picture of my aura taken with a biofeedback imaging system.  Basically, the system measures the vibrations of energy that is emitted from the different reflex zones on your hand when you place it on a sensor.  It is the electromagnetic field that we are seeing when we take an aura picture.  Where the colors are shown tells us what energies are being used at that moment.  The aura colors, as they show up on the computer screen, expand and change slightly. 

The woman who was giving the aura readings commented on the amount of indigo that I had in my aura. She said that I "know" things (indigo is tied to the third-eye chakra and related to intuition, as well as clairvoyance, psychic abilities, imagination and dreaming).

The yellow around my head represents intelligence and mental strength. I also have a tendency to think TOO much, and to over analyze.  You might notice a little gray above my head, which is indicative of stress.  lol  Maybe I should cool it on the over thinking and over analyzing.  (Tool - Lateralus)  ;)

The red that surrounds the yellow represents passion, life instincts and strong will power.  The blue that radiates from my throat chakra is tied to creativity and communication, which is not surprising since I communicate best and most passionately through art and creativity.

For a more detailed description of the meanings of the colors, see the chakra analysis chart pictured below.  This chart also displays chakra (energy center) percentages, which typically fall between 40-65%.  Optimum levels are in the 55-60 range, reflecting strong chakra power and a good, balanced flow of energy through the chakras. 

(Click on the image and zoom in to view)

In all, I was happy with my aura reading and it confirmed some of what I already know about myself and the activity levles of my energy centers. I may need some balancing in some of my chakras, but my Spleen chakra is the most strong and balanced. The Spleen chakra is associated with the sex organs. When this chakra is balanced, there is enormous capacity for creativity and partnerships with others. I need a little more grounding, as evidenced by a slightly low Root chakra, but the activity level there isn't too low. Lately most of my blockages are in my Crown chakra. I need to clear away doubt from my belief system. When there are blockages in this chakra, a lack of mission or purpose in life begins to rear its ugly head. We become lost and out of touch with our own spirit and our own intention here on earth. This is the spiritual crisis I recently experienced during a rather dark state of depression, and I knew I needed a "spiritual enema", so to speak.

My other chakras were highly active, especially my Solar Plexus chakra, at 74%. This energy center is the seat of our emotions. Those with a strong Solar Plexus Chakra have immense inner strength, a purpose in life, a career, and self-confidence as a result.  If I can balance this chakra, as well as my Crown, I think I will be able to find that balance and vitality that my soul is thirsting for.

***An interesting tid bit from Crystalinks: 

When two people have just been lovers, they will show up in each other's auras, the color of their auras depending on the nature of their relationship.  

 

When people have done healing work together, or shared physical contact, they will share a common auric field for a period of time as they have merged their electromagnetic energies.