I don't think I've ever failed quite so hard during Holy Week before. My heart is stupid and broken and I'm surely in need of prayers.
I'm neither stupid nor crazy, but I feel both. I went out for a walk tonight and I was walking so fast, I must have been trying to run away from myself and my sin. I finally slowed down and looked into my heart and allowed God inside. I can't help but feel like I can use this situation for something good. How can I unite my failures to Christ right now? In my surrendering all of this and all of myself to the Lord, can I actually see this as an opportunity for the highest good and save the world by entering into suffering? Perhaps failing this Lent was a gift. Perhaps this whole weird thing I've been challenged with is a gift. Learning how to direct all of this up to God is actually setting me free.
I surrender my failure.
I also failed terribly during Lent this 2024 so I will start new with trying to listen to God and grow in his Word the Bible.
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