On a random Tuesday afternoon

The walls of the world started melting around me
colors dripping, Slip-Sliding,
drowning. 
Imminent death, 
an alarm silently sounding 
somewhere within me.
This was it, my sign to MOVE.
On a random Tuesday afternoon 

I sat at a table, 
Four faces closed in fast, 
trapping me like some sort of feral cat
My instincts told me flee or fight
My purpose had been served
Little did I know he might
Leave this world, so soon
On a random Tuesday afternoon 

“No matter what happens, I’ll love you forever.“
He pleaded to my eyes 
As we stood in the garden’s 

sleepy dusky light 
He saw my soul, while most looked through 
Even when he reached for the wrong…
Sugar and soup.
On a random Tuesday afternoon 

Some days time and softness lingered
paint smudged nose and dried on fingers
He’d come to me in dreams
and knew I saw him, too
Whispered softly in my ear, “I dream of you”.
He showed me beauty, how to be alive
aware he was closer to the other side 
We watched the birds fly and sing their tune
On a random Tuesday afternoon 

I suppose it was only one week later
It happened so swiftly
I couldn’t be there 
I dreamed his name was no longer on his door.
Where we stood closely just a while before.
I heard the news like a knife 
The same day of my dream is when he passed into new life 
This too was a gift, I would learn soon 
On a random Tuesday afternoon.

Danse Synaptique

I used to dance like no one was watching

But somehow, I wired the wrong wires

And I couldn't stop the fires

That told me dreaming of death was safe.

I stayed asleep, imagining one day I'd live.

I had stopped dancing. 

It didn't fit the script. 

of what the fires whispered to the thoughtforms in my brain

But the screaming in my belly told me, "fight the flames".

They encircled me like a shielded fortress 

Keeping me lifeless, motionless,

and untouched by the outside world.

Until I heard a voice, not small, vibrating in my bones

Between my eyes, not a tap but a vigorous thwack--

"Wake up!"

And I knew all I could do was dance.

Breathe, be alive. Dance. 

It's never too late, it's your only chance.

So now I dance 

like no one is watching.